somebody

beau and i have had this song on repeat for the last few weeks. its just too good not to share. and what's even more amazing is that the music video makes the song 100x better. the lyrics, passion, and artistry of the clip are captivating...dare i say addicting. the only downside is that it isn't longer! so for those of you who haven't heard this song or more importantly seen the video...its worth 4 minutes of your time.

my favorite part is when she shrugs her shoulders

i genuinely wish there was some sort of surgery to mend an emotionally broken heart......

but alas, these things take time. i guess it was meant to heal this way- no quick fixes.

on a happier note... i am LOVING the 80 degree weather this week in L.A. it is wonderful.

vent

when i started school down here in l.a. in september a new commute was added to my time of being in the car and i couldn't find new music fast enough to keep me entertained so what did i do??...something i never thought would happen... i started listening to talk radio. (gasp) mainly NPR because the other stations just have too many commercials. i will say that it makes my drive go by faster and is a great way to stay informed of whats going on even if sometimes its depressing.

the first story on the air this morning was about women who are angry because society hasn't educated them that their fertility decreases exponentially with age...HELLO????!!! it interviewed a specific woman who at the age of 41 after a very successful career as a violinist was seeing a fertility specialist with her husband and was shocked when he laid out her fertility prognosis. the reporter mentioned that there is no government organization that pushes education of fertility for women (like this would solve the problem). and this is where i wanted to pick up my phone and call the reporter or the woman being interviewed and give them a piece of my mind. i reevaluated and figured that my blog can be my outlet for now.

it is moments like this, that i am so grateful for my mother and what she taught me about the importance of raising a family and the joy it brings. i am also grateful for a prophet and a church that emphasizes this as well. i don't have to be dependent on a government to tell me that if i i want to have children i shouldn't wait till i'm forty. and although some super women have a very successful career and have children most have to choose and sadly more and more women are choosing to wait till its too late. i could go on and on about what else was talked about in the story but that would be boring. i will end by saying that although i would love to get graduate degrees and have a successful nursing career, i would give up anything to be a mother and raise children. and i don't need a government agency to raise my awareness of this.

(this is not my daughter but my sweet little niece lauren)

i'll get off my soap box now.

jewkes reunion june 2011

ca-razy

life has been crazy lately.

if i'm not swamped with school projects and work. i'm planning/attending many YW activities (i love my beehives) or rushing to complete my independent study course- which includes lots and lots of reading.

beau has been on a case that has pushed and stretched his physical, mental, emotional abilities like nothing else (he would argue his mission did it more but i wasn't around for that so we'll stick with this). i have spent many nights going to bed alone and waking up at 4 am still alone. beau will come staggering in an hour later and then wake up for a client meeting at 6 am. i don't know how he does it but i guess the junior core at BYU has prepared him with more then an accounting degree. not to mention on fridays after we play i get ready for bed and he goes back to the office to work till the wee hours of the morning..there has literally been no relief.

we have learned to value going to bed together, eating home cooked meals at our apartment. (if beau works past nine which has been every night for the last few months LEK provides funds for dinner which leads to me not cooking and us getting fat and sick of eating out. although we have come up with some creative ways to use the money...i dont know if i should publish those) our mindset has changed to a good night being together before 9 pM and overall since august i have seen very little of my man.

so..... imagine our thrill when last night after one of the final client meetings beau met me at home after work at 530!! we finished a home cooked dinner before 7, walked to starbucks and got some hot chocolate and made our way to barnes and nobles where we read our favorite christmas books. we then went to a friends house to borrow a good christmas flick and went home snuggled and fell asleep. it is amazing how tough times increases your gratitude and appreciation for one another.

we found out that the client bought another 8 WEEKS of work from them! bring it on LEK!

and just for fun...pics of our first date...i can't believe this was 3 years ago this month.

ask anyone that was there and i totally kicked beaus trash in the summo fight

i was MORTIFIED when they made me kiss his cheek for this picture

so much love has come from this one date!

san diego

this was probably way to long ago to post about but none the less here i go!

we went down to encinitas to visit our good friends the lanshe's (pronouced lan- shee) who were doing an internship and now a job down there. beau and i have both spent pretty much no time down in san diego and didn't really have expectations but it was soooo fun. the area is so beautiful, the beach is perfect and the sleepy beach town was fun to walk around and explore.

we drove down after our mormon night at dodgers stadium and got to the house about 11 pm. i was so tired but we of course stayed up talking with them till who knows when. the next morning we got on our beach stuff and headed down to a restaurant that i dont know the name of. all i remember is it was packed and their pancakes were the size of manholes. but of course..very good. after stuffing our faces we had to get in our bathing suits (it's my favorite thing to do after i've eaten way too much i really have a food baby).

i think it was a holiday weekend because the beach was packed as well (but don't worry we got a good spot). we laid out, boogie boarded and body surfed. i put on sunscreen but apparently not enough as you can see from the pics below. beau didn't put any on, on purpose cause he has very few opportunities to truly soak up the sun since starting his full time job.. i know i know he's asking for it.

we packed up and headed back to the house where we played ping pong, around the world and swam in kristin's parents killer swimming pool equipped with a custom rock slide that is so fun that its borderline dangerous. after cleaning up we headed back out for dinner and a stroll around encinitas. ice cream...mmmm. mexican food....mmmm. i'm starting to feel like homer simpson.

we finished up our saturday night by once again getting in our bathing suits and and wrinkling our fingers in the hot tub while we watched rango on the computer. a perfect ending to a nearly perfect san diego day. ( i say nearly because of course i got fried like a lobster).

i promise we'll come crash at your house again lanshe's...just wait for the knock on the door! oh and thanks for the awesome weekend!

it's 9:45 on friday night and i'm sitting on my couch while my husband snoozes with his book laying on his chest. what started out as a great night with a picnic up in beverly hills and celebrity mansion hunting suddenly took a turn for the worst when i instigated an argument for him wanting to take me to anthropologie (long story and of course very stupid). in a huff i turned the car around to go home, we then did the dishes in silence and i plopped down on the couch with the computer on my lap. letting my pride fester inside of me i coldly brushed off outreaches of love from him and he eventually resigned to reading catching fire on the couch next to me.

i don't share this store because i'm dying to expose the inner workings of my marriage or what a beast of a wife i am, but as an example to me of why the Lord blesses his children with trials. its not even an hour after beau has fallen asleep and i already see so clearly my foolish pride and unfounded anger at him. i ruined a precious weekend night because of my PRIDE. certain trials we as a family have been facing lately have caused me to ask the forbidden question of "why me?" "why of all hardships did you give this to me/us? " and as i sat here tonight reflecting on my silly behavior it hit me like a ton of bricks. it wasn't any new information but a thought given to me by the Holy Ghost that trials humble us and make us more like the savior if we let them. they get rid of the "stiffneckedness" i perfectly exemplified tonight. they strip our pride and force us to rely on the Lord in all things. in my short life of experiences i have found trials act as a catalyst to my testimony of Jesus Christ. so although i have learned my lesson this time, i am positive i will have to learn it in many new and different ways in the future. that i must look to the Lord in all things including insurmountable odds or agonizing pain and recognize the divine potential and change that takes place in the heart as a result.

getty love

as much as i would love a baby right now, one perk of being childless is that you can do so many fun things at a moments notice without having to really plan. not that you can't be adventurous with kids...i'm just sayin.

one saturday evening earlier this summer we were sitting around trying to figure out if we were too tired to drive over to the beach and too poor to go see a movie or grab some grub and concluded the affirmative to both. however i did not want to waste a perfectly good saturday sitting in our apt together watching another $1.09 redbox. (i am a huge fan but you have to set a limit). so we decided to take advantage of something free we had heard about in the area.

my blog may start turning into a perpetual advertisement for the city of LA but hey the gots lots to offer. every saturday after 5 pm at the Getty museum parking is free! (the getty museum is always free but parking is $15) so from 5-9 you can bring food and lounge around the beautiful gardens and look at the different exhibits for free! the Getty is a popular attraction in LA but as we discovered on this trip, it lives up to it's reputation. it is so beautiful inside and out. every piece of the architecture, sidewalks, gardens has a very obvious artistic element to it.

we visited cuban photography and french interior design exhibits.

this is beau's impression of what brad womack (the bachelor) would probably do if he was there being filmed.

and just for old times sake.......